You can never find the right person if you can never let go of the wrong, but at the same time the moment you feel like letting go, you remember why you held on for so long. Sometimes you have to forget what you want and remember what you deserve.
I am impatient. I am too perceptive. I will think something is wrong even if you glance at me wrong. I am jealous. I am too protective. I do not think before I act. I can hurt someone without feeling remorse. I am paranoid. I am easily frightened of things that do not exist. I am suspicious. I will tell you things are fine when they are not. My mind wanders. I am an attention seeker. I do inappropriate things while being fully aware of what I am doing. I will make up stories to make me sound more interesting. I will not compliment you as much as I should.
I will always put your needs first. If you say you want something from another room I will get it for you before you can get up. I will hug you. I will kiss you. I will miss you. I will shower you with affection. I will constantly reassure you of my feelings. I will protect you. I will stick up for you even if you are wrong. I will surprise you with gifts, or gestures. I will sing songs to you that are on the radio, even if I don’t tell you that I’m singing them to you. I will think about you every time I hear something that makes me happy. I will give you every single, vain, ventricle and cell of my beating heart. You will be my everything. And I will hope that I am your everything. I will love you. I will love you.
Today, I am thankfull for you. I don’t take enough time to think about how precious you really are. But today I am sitting here saying thank you for being here. Thank you for allowing me to have a future.
Last night I had one of the coolest dreams ever. I dreamt that in the far off future Earth was going to explode, or like humans just coudlnt live there anymore, and the population of the world was only about 3 million. So I was like a Captian of this group that was in charge of the safety of all the left over humans and we got into 2 or 3 of these huge space ships and set off to this other planet that was inhabitable. There were actually 2… but we chose the one with the most water. We lower down and we see other humans there already in what looks to be large houses that would have been made in like the 50’s but with other random technology. We go down and at first when we try ot talk to them they dont speak english, but then all of a sudden they switch. Its just me and like one other Officer talking to these people when all of a sudden, I see a girl who looks identical to Emily J (yes you were in my dream lol). SO we call out Emily from the space ship and sure enough there is a double of her. Turns out there is a double of everyone somewhere on the planet. I look over way across the Horizon and see like a dark area and somehow I knew that my double was living over there. Then we decided to search more of the planet to find an area where we could drop off our 3 million people baha. I snuck off in the night with like this intense suit that made me invisible and went to that black area I had seen before. To my surprise they had technology that was almost as good as ours and they lived in this huge tower type thing. They were… kinda evil but not really. They werent bothering the other people but they werent exactly that nice to their people. Turns out my double was the right hand man to the ruler of the land, who was a chick btw. Then I woke up. I feel like I should write some sort of Sci-fi fantasy book lmao.
Thank you for being so rude to me and pushing my face away when I was going to say hello. You really showed me that you have the maturity of a four year old and that you dont even deserve my words. You know how I feel about being physical its not ok. So grow up, because I’ve babysat kids with more maturity than you.